lol i am willing to do the drive thru diet... sounds like my kinda diet!

www.drivethrudiet.com

getting here was the worst trip ever !
my flight got delayed by an hour and i had to sit infront of a crying babies and a dad who wouldn't stop singing the abc's................ but arrived safely and didn't lose my sanity! haha :)

spent my first night at ktown, ate at my old boss's restaurant called moku and then ate more korean food at woorijib! will post pics soon !!!

and today is a big day... going for a job interview and looking at a room in flushing. wish me good luck guys!

no one knows how to communicate right anymore.
facebook/myspace/twitter is destroying us!

went to denny's with my favorite people and did a gift exchange. or 'white elephant'

i didn't expect it to be such a great turn out, some people went all out on the gifts it was amazing.


yeap...
and now i'm just bumming around and watching a movie. probably going to pass out soon..........

mmm this looks good right now.

i'm really craving for sweets... ahh!

words mean nothing.
i can say so many things and not mean it.

so i'm going to stop doubting, and start believing. it just makes life so much easier...

you know what i hate? facebook relationship statuses.

especially when people are on and off with their significant other... NO ONE CARES. just get rid of it if you guys are going to keep breaking up and getting back together.

gahhhhhh!

just makes me kinda laugh beacuse i can just imagine the girl or guy crying after they had a fight and go straight to their computer to change their status.
don't they feel funny doing that?! its just weird!

CHRISTMAS GIFTS ARE OVERRATED.
no one buys gifts outta the kindness of their hearts anymore.

so...i am not buying gifts this year. i am just going to bake or something. so DEAL WITH IT!!!
(i'm not a cheap person or anything, it's just i'm bad at gifts anyways so yeah...)

and i REALLY don't expect any gifts this year... i know how some people are trying to save up their money and whatnot. so if you're going to buy me a gift thinking you're getting in something return, i'd say don't even bother giving it to me because i am not going to give you anything. yea people might get mad at me for this but whatever. i guess in a way they deserve it because they shouldn't be giving out gifts expecting something in return anyways! that's not what christmas is bout!

hahahaha anywayssss.
my car sucks!!! i really feel like i am going to get into a car accident soon. i can't drive more than 10 mph without sliding. ah.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tvaj8YqoCVc

I LOVE GA HEE. she is so cool.

FOLLOWING YOU BLINDLY

i feel like such a bum. i'm eating poptarts and watching jersey shore right now.
i have a feeling some of these clips are gonna be on the soup this week muhehe.

these guys and girls are so tacky... but they aren't too different from people here LOL.
ah that was mean....

anyway... omg the palm pixi looks cool, I WANT IT!

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here's a clip that jean showed me long time ago. felt like it was appropriate for this post.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nffDGxk-anE

hahahah too funny

haha omg 'beauty guru's' on youtube are so ridiculous! been watching a few just outta curiosity... but yeah
they take simple things and make em so complicated and technical?
like "tutorials" on 'how to wear a beret?' 'how to straighten hair?' seriously? didn't know that there would be so many steps on wearing a beret... haha. i don't know it's kind of funny and weird.

out of all of the kpop girl groups, i like AFTER SCHOOL the best http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gdmq0L6NDIs
they're so much better than wondergirls and SNSD! this song has been stuck in my head all day lol.

haha this made me laugh

Today, I woke up and looked in the mirror and noticed that my face was covered in glitter. I asked my wife about it and she said she put it on me while I was sleeping so that I would sparkle like Edward from Twilight when I'm in the sunlight. FML

lol did you see this?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cN6oZRnWzEU

.... i have a lot of growing up to do.
i think when i don't know how or can't deal with something i run away from it.
it may sound selfish and i know i may be making a stupid decision right now. but i feel like it's better off this way. i feel like i can learn things better this way without being a burden or feeling guilty. like i can make mistakes without it letting affect other people but myself. u know?

haha yea i'm at work right now and i think my thoughts are distracting me right now. cannot think straight.

FINALLY FINISHED 'TWEAK'!

five minutes past midnight...



really wanted to finish it before the 22nd was over because that was the day he became sober. how appropriate right? lol. i feel so drawn to this guy because i feel like the way he thinks about himself is how i see myself. insecure, easily attached to people yet can leave them so easily. has a love/hate relationship with his family. and so on hahaha. but i guess in a way everybody is like that huh...

neways...also watched my FIRST IMAX 3d move last night! watched christmas carol with brad while we ate our icecreams... peppermint for him (lol so cute right?) and cookies and creme for me. yeah i LOVED it! it was so cool... i felt like i was IN the movie... i even started to feel motion sick and scared sometimes because i'm scared of heights and there were some scenes where they were high up from the ground looking down. :b

yea..oo and i might dye my hair today at janices school. my hair is so damaged right now but i feel like my color is fading so badly it's starting to bother me!!!

last night went to hollywood palms for the first time... and i loved itt

watched new moon, and ate some good food there. had the chevy cheeseburger and waffle frieds with ranch and cheese... SO YUM.

ok so my thoughts on new moon...
i laughed through out the whole movie.

FJ;DLASKFJL;DKASFJ;ADS omg i bought it... it's official

december 28th is the DDAY...
i didn't know i can feel so many emotions at once. fjdkl;asjf;ds;ad ahhh!!! i feel really weird.
my head feels like it's spinning and i have these butterflies in my stomach. fkdsj;afjdas;

my new favorite word: nonchalant
watch me overuse it and misuse it. hahaha.

currently addicted to banana kiks and o!kartos. O_O

hahahaha so awkard story of the day.

so there's a man who is a regular customer at my mom's store, whenever he comes in we always have a little chat about just anything... and he seems pretty cool. today we talked bout indian food and he said he knew a cool place and asked me if i wanted to go with him sometime and i didn't know how to react to it cus i dont know it was weird. so i reacted really badly and said umm no (i sounded like a stuck up bitch as if i'm better than him but that wasn't the case at all). and he was like why not? it's not like that. i have a wife.
?!?!?!

i don't know.................... what exactly his intentions are. ... i mean there's nothing wrong with being friends with someone but
why would u wanna get to know a 12 year old looking girl.
even if it was like that i'm not flattered... i'm sure he thought i was into him and i was an easy target or something.
and does it really make it okay to go out with someone to dinner even if u say that u have a wife?

maybe i am just over reacting................. cannot put my words together right.
and i'm not going to let this get to my head... like i know stuff like this happens all the time. i just want to know wtf they are thinking cus it's weird.

gahh fdkaslfkdsalfads i'm at my moms cleaners. and whenever this man drops off his button up shirts he always has them all buttoned up way to the top. it's annoying because we have to unbutton all the shirts... and he always brings in a ton too. i don't understand why he would take the time to button all of his shirts... because i'm pretty sure when he took em off it was all unbuttoned. unless he takes em off a weird way i dont know...but yea very annoying. just spent literally half an hour unbuttoning shirts. :b

anyways... I'M REALLY EXCITED FOR THANKSGIVING!!!! :D
our family decided that my mom is in charge of the turkey... cindy and janice are in charge of side dishes... and i'm in charge of desserts!

i'm thinking bout making banana creme pie or pecan pie, or pumpkin cheese cake!!! or maybe even all of it lol

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i have some exciting news to share with you my friend. i got permission from my mom to go to new york. i mean i've always told her, but she was in denial that i was really going.

but this time we talked bout it, and at first it started out really badly but at the end it was okay. i told her to give me a year and then she can yell at me. lol. i feel so much better now knowing that i can leave like this and not with my mom being angry with me.

:D so happy right now!!!



oh and here is the result of my cake:

haha. the top reminds me of cupcakes :D

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should i take train or plane? i kinda wanna ride train even though it's a lot longer, but it looks fun!

mustache mugs

haha isn't that a cute?

watching malcolm in the middle with my mom. weird she is never up late late. it's 12:30 right now.

yeah... and i'm waiting for her to go to sleep so i can EAT. she hates it when i eat late at night hahaha. i'm soo hungry though :(

i'm craving for a vietnamese sub sandwich, nutella on toast, and cheese ramyun !!!

fjdsa;klfjds;alfkjdsa;lfkjdsa;fds;af.

the highlight of my night was probably when i accidently jabbed? my nose with a mop stick and ended up getting a bloody nose. lol.

omg there's an american apparel now open at oakbrook!!!!!

i want like a sweater in this print... know where to get one?

talk is cheap

PROVE YOSELF

going to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs tonight! :)

tell mum everything is ok

http://www.tellmumeverythingisok.com/

i hate it

when people do misleading things just to get a reaction outta someone. or test them.


when celebrities act like they hate the paparazzi and act like poor victims when u know they love all the attention!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5TetnnkvWJE
that is what assistants are for!

or when i crave for something so random but it's unbearable i feel like crying? lol. right now i'm craving for honey combs cereal :(

HATE IT!

haha this costume is awesome! found this from the american apparel facebook page.

i parallel parked for the first time today! i'm pretty proud of myself since i never learned it in driver's ed class. hahaha :) but i gotta give brad some credit for directing me a little bit. but yeah. we were supposed to watch a MIKA concert today because he got free tickets some how... but we ended up going in an hour late and there were too many people that we couldn't even see the stage. so we left thinking it was pointless being there if we couldn't even see anything, ya know?! kinda a bummer but it was free anyway. so instead we got little ceaser's and ate it in my car. haha.

if i have a favorite item i tend to wear it a lot... and i've been wearing that shirt like everyday now. hehheh

so we ended up not going to haunted house! i didn't know that most haunted houses are closed on weekdays :b

okay so i just watched paranormal activity and i dont know if it's because of all the hype about it i found it so disappointing. it dragged WAY too long... and the end was the only best part. but i guess if i was in that situation i would be really scared.

so before i watched the movie people were telling me how scary it was so i was imagining THE WORST and i think i scared myself more that way preparing myself for what was going to happen. because i kept imaging all these scary images and situations that i got myself paranoid about over nothing. hahahahaha. but that's me... i always assume the worst and drive myself crazy. haha.

so yup. that is all fer now... bed time! :)

omg i would do anything to be 5'7. i feel so short and stubby... is thaht the right word... stubby?...........................


anyway...

it's still friday?!?!??!?

i try so hard to forget you but you even haunt me in my dreams.

last night brad took me to the city and we went to see juliette lewis's band play at bottom lounge.
it was AMAZING. i fell in love with her last night. she is sucha great performer... and i love how she gets really personal with the fans while she's performing, yeah i was so amazed... it was great haha :)

omg this girl...

you say 'fuck my life' and make it seem like you have such a hard life. when really you had control over all of it. you deserve everything that is happening to you right now.
all you cared bout was making friends, you tried so hard to fit in that you didn't realize that you were losing yourself. i swear if i ever see you again... i might just have to shoot somebody

so today i saw a lady almost burn her face while trying to sniff a lighted candle. lol who does that?

and...

i've realized... i'm super boring.
that is all for now...

i guess my mom wants me to be more productive so she gave me money to go grocery shopping and go craZzzy and make anything i want! lol. my specialty is pasta because you can never go wrong with it, just add a bunch of your favorite things that you think will taste good together and there you have it! a pretty good dang pasta. i also do the same with fried rice. lol jean knows... i just add like whole buncha crap together.


so yeah i made some pasta... i put some shredded parmasean cheese, heavy cream, sliced onions, shrimp, bacon, shredded mozzarella, lotsa butter, little basil, and some diced tomatoes on top! i wanted to add avocados but i think it already had enough so i ended it like that.


it kinda looks gross, but it tasted good to me. u cant go wrong with bacon and cheese!!!

oh and i went to look at the squirrel again and it's STILL there! so saddd :(

i was gonna write a pt2 bout my weekend, but i feel like if i do it'll be like milion pages long. yes it was THAT awesome. hehe jk. it was pretty eventful i guess. i'm just glad i got the chance to see the people i got to see. and i'm sad i didn't get to see couple people like i planned to but it's okay, there is always next time.





yeah..
so yesterday i saw the weirdest thing ever!



it's a squirrel hanging from a branch on it's back legs. with his hands together like he's praying. i think he was dead......................... because he was so still, and i kept throwing sticks at him and he didn't budge. and i came back there an hour later and he was still there like that! i wonder what happened??? lol. kinda sad in a way....




i'll end this entry with a picture of sweet coco, it's so hard to take a picture of her cus she's always moving! :( but yeah.. that is it for now.....

i'm back! still alive and well :)

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1- andrew's coffee shop w/ jean. spinach soup for her and grilled cheese w/ tomato and bacon and brownie sundae for me!

2- oh taisho! w/ chisako. we had different types of kabobs, pork, beef tongue, quail with egg, quail with bacon, french fries and salad!
3- me looking freaking goofy, showing off jean's creations and my stuff that i bought!
4- resting after shopping at flea market and thrift shopping hehehe. bought a shirt for 50 cents! and tons of jewelry!

will write a second entry later about my weekend. too lazy to think ahahaha. overall very good weekend :)

rjklajf;kldsaj;lfkdsja;lfdjsa;fda again my mom. she is so... how can i put this. she lives in her own little happy world. she works 12 hour shifts 6 days a week and yet she finds fun out of it. she tells me how when she eats lunch she pretends like she's having a picnic. when she works she makes a game out of it. when she's bored or tired she pretends like she is in a place where she really wants to be. she tries to be friends with the customers. she's too positive and too sweet for this world. :*( i just heard another customer talk to her like she was 4, and basically telling her how to do her job. yet SHE TOOK IT, she talked to him so sweetly and let him win. ughh made me so mad.
and she showed me an email she sent to her classmate/friend and it was the cutest sweetest thoughtful email ever. and her classmate/friend writes back. 'okay got it'. i'm like thinking, this woman who barely speaks english, tried so hard to have a conversation with you and that's all you write back?!?!?! agh... i don't know. it just bothered me so much.
fdskafj;ldskafj;lsadkfj;slkajf;lsadkjf;lsdafj;salfj;sda. she makes me me wanna cry a river... this guiltttt.... fkdl;sajf;ldsjaf;lskjf;lsdkajf;lsdkjaf;lsdajf;lkdsajf;lkdsjaf;lkjsad;lfkjsda;lkfjsd;alkfj;sadlfjdsa;lfjdsa.

soon we will all move on different paths in our lives and forget bout each other.

bugging out over nothing.

neway. i watched julie and julia and i liked it! makes me really wanna do culinary now. watching that movie made me so hungry, especially this one scene where they show julia's fish she ordered, and it had butter sauce all over and it looked so moist and goood. so this morning i got myself a bagel with lox slices on top from einsteins... it was really good, had the perfect saltiness.

i'm tired of people telling me things that they think i want to hear.

wear your emotions on your sleeve

lol i'm totally getting this. it's reversible sweater from fredflare that you can wear either happy or sad.

note to self: buy deodorant.

i missed all the signs.
was this a cry for help?

FREE YOURSELF FROM YOUR MISERY

long night last night...
after work i ate at dennys with couple friends and didn't realize until after we were done eating that i locked my keys in my car!!!
so we ended up staying there til 6 in tha morning trying to get it open with a hanger, screw driver and some metal bar thing. and almost every denny's employee came to help out. haha i was SO THANKFUL.... tehy were too kind. including my favorite waiter!!! he even gave us free hot chocolates.... so nice right?!?!?!? hahahaaha. but yeah they couldn't get it open so i had to call lockssmith and pay 55 bucks :*( it coulda been free if we were in naperville, but we were in aurora... across the street was naperville... ahahaaaaaa ah. just my luck right? gah i'm so stupid sometimes!

after today i have a three day break from red mango! but some long shifts ahead because of last fling coming up! haha but it's okay i will manage......

all i heard tonight was blahblahblah complain complain wahwahh.
usually i'm good with zoning people out but it was unavoidable because it happened through the wholllle freakinnng night. just following me in my face bitching and whining.
i know i complain myself... but i don't complain about how much i hate my job. because if i hated it so much i would have quit. i hate it when people think they deserve something when they DON'T. and if you deserved it, it woulda happened right? and i hate it when people complain about working the crappy hours when YOU are the one who can control it, change your availability.
if you're sooo unhappy then LEAVE.

yeah... i'm actually not as mad as i sound in this entry. lol. i'm pretty cool right now. i was just tired of hearing the same things. especially when i'm in a pretty good mood i hate it when people have to be a mood killer and ruin it for you. u know?!?!?!?!? haha.

lol so i write my mom a note her response:
"thank you for letter to me, but this paper is very expensive. use old paper next time"
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cindy your list of wants isn't impossible. and don't you get paid at the school? and if you don't... try to find a tutoring job!
and... i want fruit pizza too. maybe i'll bring you some. did u know theres a red mango somewhere by depaul?...

some girl barfed all over red mango today and i had to clean it. i have really bad gagging reflex? so i wanted to puke myself cleaning it... it was horrible :(
and that's it...
oh yeah i found my wallet... it was in janice's car...............................

currently loving
this weather.
late night denny's.
unexpected friendships.
insightful dreams.
reunions.
relaxing.
the scent that triggers(?) memories.
energy drinks.
remixes.
red mango.

i'm in the weirdest mood right now. i feel lazy but not sleepy enough to go to bed. it's 4 am. the sun doesn't rise at this time anymore...

prove me wrong that you are not just like everybody else.

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i lie to myself to make me feel better. but i am relaxed :)

omg look how precious this is....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBO2U7SZ5qs&feature=channel_page

my current petpeeve: when my mom uses the word ridiculous. because it really is ridiculous. (why does it look like i spelled it wrong...?!)
when she lectures me she says that word probably 348923049823043 times. very annoying. i can tell when she learns a new word because she starts to overuse it, even if it doesn't make sense. >:O

haha anyway... i had two hours of sleep and been up since 6am.
sometimes i feel like giving up, but i know if i do i'm just proving other people right, and i don't wanna do that!!!!!!ahahahahaha. but i think secretly i want someone to say JUST GIVE UP so i can have an excuse to not try. lol.
yeah ... it really sucks not having my own car. but hopefully i'll get it fixed tonight. :)

i'm getting my dreams mixed up with reality more than ever. it's so bad. i feel so confused...........
maybe my lack of sleep is starting to take it's toll on me.

who wants to go on a trip with me?

best week ever

i wish i can feel like this everyday.

i made seasoned fries today and accidently snorted some cumin. my nose is burning...ahhh.

ew i'm almost 20 years old... yet here i am still not knowing what to do with my life.
i feel so behind.
i still feel like i'm 15 =P i wish i was 15...

LAZY SUNDAY

if i was me two years ago i would have not even tried
i wish i was me two years ago

:)

me and janice @ red mango




there's a popcorn kernel that's been stuck in my throat for two days now... it hurts :(

SAVE ME FROM THIS NEVER ENDING CYCLE

wow i just wrote like a freaking essay about nothing. but i decided to delete it because i sound crazy. crazy what two hours of sleep can do to you................ but i actually feel pretty good right now! whereas when i get normal amount of sleep i feel drained and lazy... weird right??? i'm gonna come back to this later...getting distracted. u know my add

tattoo

^ inspiration for my first tattoo!

is it so wrong to make stupid decisions if it doesn't affect anyone but myself??!?!

God is definitely testing my patience and i think i failed.