.... i have a lot of growing up to do.
i think when i don't know how or can't deal with something i run away from it.
it may sound selfish and i know i may be making a stupid decision right now. but i feel like it's better off this way. i feel like i can learn things better this way without being a burden or feeling guilty. like i can make mistakes without it letting affect other people but myself. u know?

haha yea i'm at work right now and i think my thoughts are distracting me right now. cannot think straight.