- my mom this morning.
growing up i've always wanted my mom to be proud of me. before i was really bad at expressing my feelings towards her. so to show my appreciation and love to my mom i would show it through my eating habits. lol. i told these stories so many times to my friends, but when i was little, i would always try so hard to impress her by eating all her food until there wasn't a drop left. i would eat apples to the core til it turned brown, watermelon til u could only see the green part, i even ate a whole box of kiwis for her! muhaha.
if you know me now you'll know that food is my pride. if i don't finish all my food, i feel like failure. loll. i guess this is why i'm so chubby!
she also told me not to worry bout school and if i didn't want to go then i didn't have to. i guess she is trying to put me at ease. but i really do want to go to school. i just don't know what i want to do, that's the problem. i want to try to find my passion first before committing to anything.
i'm not only going to school just to make her happy, i want to go to make her proud of me. and also i need to, for myself. if i really want my own independence i need to get a career, i can't work at red mango forever! :b
after speaking to her, i feel like i can sleep easy now.
speaking of sleep, i am getting more tired by the minute. going to bed early tonight. goodnight :)
